The Kim Porter Book Controversy: A Tell-All Memoir Gone Wrong?

Audrey Hirschberger
Memoir • Oct 27, 2025 • 7 mins
Posted by Audrey Hirschberger

In recent months, few pop culture stories have stirred as much debate (and confusion) as the Kim Porter book. The memoir claimed to be written in Kim Porter’s voice and promised explosive revelations about her life, her relationship with Sean “Diddy” Combs, and the circumstances surrounding her untimely death in 2018. 

But what began as a potential posthumous tell-all quickly unraveled into a firestorm of denials, legal threats, and allegations of exploitation.

From bestseller lists to backlash, the Kim Porter book has sparked widespread controversy, not only because of its shocking content, but because of the serious questions surrounding its authenticity. 

Is it a genuine reflection of Porter’s experiences? Or is it a fabricated narrative built on rumor and opportunism?

In this blog, we’ll explore the story behind the Kim Porter book, the key claims it makes, the reactions from her family and the public, and why it has become one of the most contentious publishing moments in recent memory. 

Whether you’re following the legal drama surrounding Sean Combs or trying to understand the legacy of Kim Porter, this is a story that reveals just how blurry the line between truth and exploitation can become, especially when the subject is no longer here to speak for herself.

Who was Kim Porter? 


Before diving into the dispute over the Kim Porter book, it’s helpful to understand who Kim Porter was and the circumstances of her death.

Kimberly Antwinette Porter (December 15, 1970 – November 15, 2018) was an American model, actress, and public figure. 

She began modeling in her teens, appeared in television shows and films such as Wicked Wicked Games, The Brothers, Mama, I Want to Sing!, and also appeared in music videos. 

Over time, she became known not only for her own work but for her long on‑and‑off relationship with the music mogul Sean “Diddy” Combs. 

Kim Porter was a mother of four: she had a son, Quincy Brown, from a prior relationship with R&B singer Al B. Sure!, and with Sean Combs she had a son, Christian, and twin daughters Jessie and D’Lila. 

On November 15, 2018, Porter was found unresponsive at her home in Toluca Lake, California, and was pronounced dead. 

An autopsy and further investigation by the Los Angeles County Coroner’s Office later determined that her death was caused by lobar pneumonia and classified as natural.

Given her relationship with one of the most high‑profile figures in music, and her own public persona, the news of a Kim Porter book claiming to reveal new truths naturally stirred significant interest and controversy.

The emergence of the Kim Porter book and its claims

Kim Porter Book: Kim'S Lost Words

The “book” in question is titled Kim’s Lost Words: A Journey for Justice, From the Other Side… (often shortened to just Kim’s Lost Words) and was published under a pseudonym, Jamal T. Millwood. 


The Kim Porter Book release date was on September 6th, 2024, and the real name behind the pseudonym appears to be Todd Christopher Guzze, also using the alias “Chris Todd.” 

The purported origin story is that, after Porter’s death, the author (or his associates) received tapes, documents, and a flash drive containing diaries, notes, or recordings from people “very close” to Porter and Combs. 

Using these, the author claims to have pieced together a memoir that discloses personal and disturbing details of Porter’s life, especially her relationship with Combs and alleged abuse. 

Among the claims in the book are explicit accounts of physical abuse, sexual coercion, and allegations involving other celebrities and purported hidden recordings or tapes. 

The book, though short (about 58 pages in some versions), gained rapid attention online and even reached bestseller status on Amazon shortly after it was released. 

Interestingly, the timing amplified the book’s visibility: it gained traction around the same time that Sean Combs was under indictment on serious charges (sex trafficking, racketeering, etc.), drawing a public connection between the memoir’s allegations and broader scrutiny of Combs.

The pushback: denials, removal, and questions of authenticity

Almost immediately after Kim’s Lost Words began circulating, there was intense pushback from multiple parties. The controversy centers on whether the book is genuine, whether Porter ever intended such a memoir, and whether the claims within it are fabrications. 

Here are the major strands of opposition and doubt:

The children of Kim Porter deny it

Porter’s children, Christian, Jessie, D’Lila, and Quincy, publicly reported that their mother never wrote a memoir or manuscript. They asserted that they had no knowledge of any such book and that any claims to the contrary were false. 

Their joint statements emphasized that the “book” is a misappropriation of Porter’s memory and that those claiming closeness to Porter or acting as intermediaries are misrepresenting themselves.

Legal and defamation threats from others named

Al B. Sure! (Porter’s former partner and father of Quincy) took strong offense at certain claims in the book about him. He issued cease‑and‑desist letters to Amazon and the publisher, demanding that defamatory content be removed, a public apology issued, and that sales be halted. 

He flatly denied the explicit sexual claims involving him as “the most disgusting, heinous lie,” arguing they were false, malicious, and damaging to his reputation. 

Meanwhile, Sean Combs’ legal team labeled the Kim Porter tell-all “fake,” “offensive,” and a “shameless attempt to profit from tragedy.” They also emphasized that it is an established fact that Porter died of natural causes (pneumonia), not foul play. 

Amazon pulls the book, citing a dispute

In early October 2024, Amazon removed Kim’s Lost Words from its platform. The company stated it had been made aware of a dispute regarding the title and that it had notified the publisher.

The takedown is closely tied to the family’s objections and questions over the book’s legitimacy. 

The author’s uncertain stance & questions about sourcing

One of the most telling admissions is from the author himself. When asked whether the book is fully true, he once said: “If somebody put my feet to the fire … I have to say I don’t know. But it’s real enough to me.” 

In another interview, he suggested perhaps 80% of it is true or “real enough” for him as an investigator.

Skeptics point to multiple red flags:

  • Many passages read as sensational or melodramatic, with graphic details that resemble rumors circulating in public discourse.
  • Some claims involve hidden tapes, secret videotapes, or conspiratorial elements that are difficult or impossible to independently verify.
  • The author has not publicly produced unambiguous proof (e.g. signed diaries, verifiable audio, testimony from credible sources) that would clearly tie the content to Porter herself.
  • Close friends of Porter, including her caregiver (Lawanda Lane) and longtime associates, have publicly stated Porter was private and would never have written a book like this, and that they never saw evidence of one.

Given all these factors, many observers characterize the Kim Porter memoir as a possible hoax, or at best an unverifiable compilation of rumors and hearsay presented in memoir form.

Why this matters (and what it tells us)

The Kim Porter book controversy is more than just celebrity gossip. It raises broader questions about memory, legacy, truth, and how narratives are constructed after someone dies.

First, for Porter’s family and children, this is deeply personal. They see the book as an appropriation of their mother’s story. One filled with false, malignant, and painful portrayals. Their public denials and legal responses suggest they consider the book harmful, not just sensational.

Second, the controversy illustrates how in the age of digital publishing and social media, provocative claims can spread rapidly, sometimes faster than fact checking can keep up. A relatively short self‑published “memoir” can climb bestseller lists before doubts are raised. 

Third, it speaks to legal and ethical boundaries: defamation, rights of the deceased, and the responsibility of publishers and platforms in vetting content that may be fraudulent or damaging. The cease‑and‑desist letters, removal of the book, and legal posturing all reflect how messy these boundaries become when claims are contested. 

Finally, regardless of the veracity of the claims, the discourse around the Kim Porter book magnifies the real questions people have asked for years about her relationship with Diddy, allegations of abuse, and how much of what is publicly known is true, distorted, or suppressed. 

In that sense, the controversy itself becomes part of her posthumous narrative, for better or worse.

Concluding thoughts 

The Kim Porter book stands as a compelling intersection of memoir, rumor, and controversy. It raises questions not only about the truth behind its claims but also about how stories are shaped, shared, and consumed after someone’s death. 

While the idea that Porter may have left behind private writings is intriguing, the sweeping denials from her children, the murky origins of the manuscript, and the absence of credible verification cast a long shadow over the book’s legitimacy.

Ultimately, it’s a reminder that stories involving public figures (especially those who can no longer speak for themselves) require careful scrutiny. Sensational claims demand strong, verifiable evidence, and even then, they must be weighed against the context and intentions behind them. 

In navigating these narratives, it’s essential to consider not only the public’s curiosity, but also the voices of those who knew the person best. In this case, Kim Porter’s children and close friends have been unwavering in their rejection of the book’s authenticity, a rejection that speaks volumes about how they want her memory to be honored.

This was certainly a memoir done WRONG, but if you want to read some examples of memoirs done right, check out our blog on the best celebrity memoirs

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